Happy 4th of July Everyone....
I do love celebrating Americas Anniversery of Independence...But in all honesty my independence day came many years ago when I came into recovery. I had the freedom from active addiction to do whatever I wanted to but couldnt because I was a prisoner to my dis-ease. I remember the very first time I voted...Im ashamed to admit that I never cared one way or the other before recovery...but between my son having just left for his first tour in Iraq, & my deep desire to want to be a part of such a patriotic honor...I decided to register, & then vote.
Ronnie came with me & hes standing outside the curtain giving me directions because I didnt know how. The sweet volunteers patiently explained to me what to do, & were even cracking up when Ronnie thought it would be funny to yell over the curtain..."Honey...just drop in the quarter & the movie will be on in a minute"
I stood there in unbelievable awe & a deep sense of humility & gratitude as I became very emotional & the tears wouldnt stop. I had helped contaminate my little part of this wonderful Country with my illegal scams, trying to get over on so many people, signing up for social services so I didnt have to work, & only helped harm our economy w/ my selfish & horrible choices, so the warm feeling Im convinced was the "Presence of God" standing in that little booth in our town with me, forgiving me, and reminding me of the hundreds of other gifts awaiting me as long as I continue to allow Him to work in my life.
On this day...I dont just think of the fireworks, BBQs, or picnics, I think of all of our US Soldiers who arent with us because theyre busy fighting, going without, feeling lonely, and some are dying ...so we may be safe in our "AMERICA the Beautiful" to celebrate our 4th of July. If it werent "for" our Soldiers, we wouldnt be embracing or enjoying our safe picnics. So tonight as I watch the fireworks display...for every one that goes up, so will a prayer for our troops who are proudly protecting and serving us all so well.
Thank you Troops...We await and pray for your safe return.